hi jiahui wish u could do more to negate the vissicitudes of life we all have but those r of varied intensity in separate circumstances. u r quite incapable u cannot remedy everything but console a friend in distress 

2016 in a really big nutshell

The year’s finally coming to a close! 2016 feels as if though it has stretched on forever. Really. So much has conspired.

(cheating because I consider the post-As period in Dec a 2016 too)

For personal review, and in chronological order (sry for the spam this is just for future JH to read):

I made up for a year of procrastination in 2014 (2015)IMG_8104.jpg

Whilst doing so, made new friends

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And reinforced precious friendshipsIMG_0362.JPG


Then FINALLY graduated (2015)

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Bumbled around loads (2015)IMG_2136.jpg

Became a brown potatoIMG_2347.jpg

Realised in Taiwan that I was kinda into mountainsIMG_3080.jpg

Climbed a small oneIMG_3632.jpg

Which was beautifulIMG_3631.jpg

Then returned to reality and the working world

Started cooking moreIMG_5427.jpg

Might’ve eaten too muchIMG_5451.jpg

Took on Hanoi with the girlsScreen Shot 2016-12-31 at 5.13.59 PM.png

Gave yunsq a sewing machine (God knows what happened to it)IMG_5568.JPG

Oh! This is insignificant but paid a visit to botanics w/o any clue I was destined to be sequestered there for the next 4 years IMG_5691.jpg

Cycled a lot aloneIMG_5817.jpg

Sometimes with friendsIMG_6375.jpg

Sometimes with friends but on footIMG_2271.jpg

Phob’s birthday!!IMG_6561.jpg

Went through a whole lot of confusion about uni decisionsIMG_6865.jpg

Baked a cake w/o flour for Joshua and was hella proud of itIMG_6991.jpg

Popped byIMG_0374.jpgIMG_0365.jpg a few POPs

Then had a working stint at CPF IMG_0712.jpgthat made me rethink things I was once content aboutIMG_0775.jpg

Left because it was the uni application season! And interviews galoreIMG_1073.jpg

Worked at a waterparkIMG_1689.jpg

Whilst entertaining the idea of a reality entirely different from the one nowIMG_1951.JPG

Met tons of new friends!!IMG_1964.jpg

Too bad I never went thereIMG_1985.JPG

Worked at a consultancy firmIMG_2430.JPG

While the waterpark thing was still ongoingIMG_2621.JPG

Went to JBIMG_2178.JPG

Eventually left the waterpark job (which was a huge eye opener I do not regret)IMG_3213.JPG

Why? Law camp first haIMG_3354.JPG

Which was alright la. But Japan was better. Oh and more POPs!!IMG_3424.jpgIMG_3418.jpg


Ok and finally Japan happenedIMG_3944.jpg

And for the sake of time, Mt Fuji to top it all offIMG_6123.JPG

Then law school happened and my life ended 🙂 jk haha I’m thankful for so many things but JH U R TOO LAZY BC IT IS TIME FOR DINNER. Immensely thankful for Sem 1 and the precious people I’ve met in school (so so so so thankful). All by pure luck. 2015 was a year of personal growth, and 2016 a year of radical change. Aiyo 2016 you have been such a gracious year.


In light of the missing supermoon of 14/11: slightly haunting and vaguely wistful

Clair De Lune

Your soul is as a moonlit landscape fair, 

Peopled with maskers delicate and dim, 

That play on lutes and dance and have an air 

Of being sad in their fantastic trim. 

The while they celebrate in minor strain 

Triumphant love, effective enterprise, 

They have an air of knowing all is vain,— 

And through the quiet moonlight their songs rise, 

The melancholy moonlight, sweet and lone, 

That makes to dream the birds upon the tree, 

And in their polished basins of white stone 

The fountains tall to sob with ecstasy.

Original French

Votre âme est un paysage choisi 

Que vont charmant masques et bergamasques 

Jouant du luth et dansant et quasi 

Tristes sous leurs déguisements fantasques.

Tout en chantant sur le mode mineur 

L’amour vainqueur et la vie opportune 

Ils n’ont pas l’air de croire à leur bonheur 

Et leur chanson se mêle au clair de lune,

Au calme clair de lune triste et beau, 

Qui fait rêver les oiseaux dans les arbres 

Et sangloter d’extase les jets d’eau, 

Les grands jets d’eau sveltes parmi les marbres.

Fun fact: the above was inspiration for Debussy’s Suite bergamasque Clair de Lune! Learnt something separate from SLIC today 🙂

Week 13

I haven’t been thinking lately. A little back I remember very hurriedly noting down something small about tHalloween along the lines of:

“thalloween was great though now i have no time to reflect on in because i am screwed for my submissions!! managed to complete an essay under the table during scaring downtime hur hur”

which was really sad haha

In the relentless ebb of things one tends not to think. Thinking takes time! It entails staring into the distance and pondering. Sometimes I lie awake late at night, not thinking about very much at all. Nothing but wistful absorption in the emptiness of one’s mind. Which truthfully is quite a pleasure.

Wish I had plentitude time and peace of mind to wander and ponder, but I think the last I’ll have the luxury of such was post-As. I miss fondly long walks from Thompson with KH, trampling round the park connectors with SH/WY, even long solo cycles in the rosy glow of dawn.

Was at crossroads then – a period of deep confusion about where I was duty bound to head to (reason or passion!!). Following that was recess week which involved a brief period of rueful thinking. Now, I’m settled! Kind of, I think. Done and dusted. I try not to think too much about the choices I’ve made. The right thing to do too.

At MPS yesterday someone cried over a story involving an old granny, nearing death (wrong, to state this! usually unspoken!), and forlorn. Death makes me wonder about what constitutes living, and of what worth living presents. Are we still living if physically present, but mentally otherwise?

Old age scares me. Very much. I conversely exhibit slight proclivity to young children. They possess immense potential – young, malleable souls with a great way ahead of them (if society deems so). At the same time I am guilty of avoiding community projects involving the old. Selfish, I know. Those involve weighty thinking about lost opportunity, and slight regret I’ve accumulated over the years.

tldr: It was very relatable, and made me lapse into introspection. Yet contracts called, and my thoughts shuttered in a grey metal locker. Why bother?

The boys are reading loads during army time. I am jealous of this. Bought a bunch of books at UTown the other day (heart was full!! 5 classics for $20!), and joyo made a really apt comment that I’d never get down to reading the stuff I bought. Life pls stop galloping on it is windy and I am lost why I am writing in unnaturally short sentences

oh wait, short sentences signify the lack of thought – fragments of incoherence with no singular running thread,


time to study ha ha no time to think