feeling rather dissatisfied/unhappy in school rn (i dare not use depressed – it implies much more than simple unhappiness but unhappiness is itself too mild? too easy to dismiss)? i’m still on top of my work but boredom finally peaked this week and i’m finding it exasperatingly hard to focus. not because the content’s tough or anything – it’s actually easier this year because idk law is a niche area and i’m now more used how it’s meant to be studied. this is even though we’re going through much tougher topics in y2.
didn’t help also that I had a semi-debate with Z over lunch over his very unconvincing reasons for staying in law – tldr the usuals like: the sunken cost fallacy/$$$$$$ etc. won’t go into that but those aren’t good reasons for wasting away your youth studying for certain goals achievable in possibly more feasible means.
just left the study room because of this sudden, intense feeling of frustration – not with the subject matter or anything, but merely the current state of things!!!! how does E/the y2s from the previous batch spend entire days!!! in the study room!! from day to night!! maybe it’s the feeling of not having much to look forward to? or maybe it’s the lack of feeling if any at all
as edurn says (ad verbatim): “<sigh> one day at a time”